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Friday, December 2nd, 2005
10:32 pm - December 2nd is a day my family is nice to me

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Friday, November 25th, 2005
2:01 pm
It's raining outside. I very much preferred the fog.

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It's been awhile since I've been on thisCollapse )

current mood: a zen-like state of happiness

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Monday, November 14th, 2005
11:28 pm
ive been sleeping all day... it's kind of depressing. i need a job. earlier on though, we went to the cemetary. i scaled rucker's tomb, but mr. cemetary security in his soccer mom minivan passed by on his patrol and yelled at me. later we went to toys-r-us, where i had collapsible lightsaber duels, which i completely dominated by the way.

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Saturday, November 12th, 2005
5:38 am
my free camera also came with some free software. it wasnt until tonight(?) i checked it out. i feel like a dunce. i've had this photo-editing program this whole time and not even known. it's good timing though, revealing itself to me at this hour. i have been struck with another case of insomnia and this gives me something else to fiddle with.
it's 5 something in the morningCollapse )

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Thursday, November 10th, 2005
5:44 pm
I'm sharing my house with a rich nerd from Thailand. He also happens to have a very poor grasp of english. And he lives in the one room I could find solace in.

I need a job really bad. and a car, so I can find more interesting things to take pictures of. I heard you're not supposed to end a sentence with a proposition. But that was a sentence fragment so it was wrong anyway.

I'm considering getting my tongue pierced again, I have a lot of free time. I could play with it when I'm bored.

this first one didnt come out right, but i had fun taking it. I set the timer on my camera, hung it from my mouth, and attempted to catch a shot of me clipping my nails out the window of a speeding vehicle.

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Saturday, November 5th, 2005
2:07 am
i'm going on a no sleep binge...

sieving my headCollapse )

current mood: meh. it's life

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Monday, October 31st, 2005
10:35 pm
today even started out swell... i called in my job to quit yesterday, but i felt bad about doing it on such short notice so i reluctantly agreed to come in one last time today. i was so depressed about having to work on halloween. but vin called this morning and informed me that wouldnt be necessary, and she was soo nice about the whole thing. i was so happy i started yelling in ectasy, and then i put the b-52's rock lobster on repeat and danced about the house for 20 minutes, most of the time doing a mix of the twist and this weird running in place thing. oh happy day!
my camera died on me so this is all i got. but holy shit! what a great time. so i'm at this party watching these people get fucked up all around me, kinda interesting at first being the sober one for the first time ever. but that novelty quickly wore off. then we are leaving, and they say they are trick or treating. "you can't be serious", i say. and they are. and eventually i start doing it, very embarassed at first. then, it was so much fun. especially all the nice things everyone had to say about my get-up. except for that one fat guy who might have been a little too drunk or a lot too crazy. i think he was trying to get hannah to come into his house, and he was eyeing me strangely. and there were some old people.

current mood: fuckin groovy man

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Saturday, October 29th, 2005
9:48 pm
today we went to the park. we rode on swings, climbed trees, and sat on concrete canine statues

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Friday, October 28th, 2005
1:09 am
ah... called in sick today so i could find a costume. looks like i'm going to have to shave my legs( never thought i'd have to do that again). at least this time- well let me tell you-

makes me laugh every time i think about itCollapse )

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Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
9:14 am
cyclonic images invaded my rest last night, with ill intent
-we are leaving this horrible city with its beautiful beach and beautiful loving friends, yes we are finally leaving, great things await us hurray we are excited.
-the happiness and hope pulsing through our veins upon arrival
-eric's stupid face, stab it with knives!
-hiding the drugs in the air vents when we went out
-too much tv, green shag carpet, old bathroom, dirty parking lot
-the albertsons employee, who apparently cared enough to ask me in i was on the streets and listen to my story, but not enough to even wish me luck. mister, you are why i hate america, in all of its fat, ignorant splendor
-michaels crazy wooden legged grandpa, calling we long-haired ones faggots, sipping his whisky through a straw
-toys-r-us runs paranoia throughout
-the tweaker, sucking his glass dick for hours with no result
-prostrate under the truck canopy, death imminent, take me death [someone, sydo, lacy, michael look for me why arent you looking for me find me i cant move when i do my insides explode help please i am almost gone goddamnit why arent you looking for me your smiling faces say you care i am not with you i could be dead i would look for you any of you i would care please someone]
-worst robbery of a chinese restaurant ever
-cant lie down, where did my skin go? my face, what has happened to my face!? god what have you done to me?
-act normal now, if you tell them you are dying they will think you are strange
-josh, shawn take me back i was tricked i dont want to be here rescue me
-maybe this freezing shower will slow my heart down so i can breathe
-is this really the end? to be lost in the wayside, sans a sole friend?
abilene, texas. i will despise you forever, your friendly plains, happy neighbors and calm roads do not fool me. you are evil, 100% concentrate. yet, you failed. i would have taken death before i allowed the corruption of my soul. i won, me, you told me it was hopeless, it is never hopeless.

i dont assume my life as a given anymore. there is good from the worst of things.

current mood: hungry i need breakfast

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Monday, October 24th, 2005
4:35 pm

this is what i eat for lunch, every single fucking day. i am sick of it, so now i will quit my job and never eat chinese food again. and for the curious that is the 8th time ive said that.

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12:09 am
if there is a kind of time i hate, it is times like now. i try to think, i know it's important, but i can't, and a corner of me knows it's for the best, i always get everything wrong. i have these gut feelings of course, but my instincts are like baby wipes for a commercial fisherman, useless. it's sad too, cuz in the end they always have to rub it in my face and tell me how they knew all along. maybe i can learn to trust them, and maybe i can finally get it right. before it's too late and the incidents of the bowling alley/zero's/ihop/beach/days inn/lynnhaven/chelsea's party happen all over again. knowing me tho, probably not.

current mood: confused,frustrated

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Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
11:49 am

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Saturday, October 22nd, 2005
7:26 pm
i was standing by the bus stop, watching this trio
an old native man, a young mexican women, a boy who didnt fit
the boy looked to me every now and then, expecting something
the girl and man were avidly conversing, "si, bon!"
but thats not important
there was a man, lying face down in the grass
and i couldnt tell if he was breathing, was he dead?
i was going to kick him to find out
thats when i got picked up
and all the only thing i know for sure
was that i was really pissed i didnt have my camera

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2:45 am
a really bad description of a really good time
yeah this is kinda longCollapse )

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